Thankful

Three weeks ago on Thanksgiving day I was not feeling very thankful.  I was short-sighted.  All I could see and feel was what I was going through at that moment and at that moment I was in extreme pain.  I couldn't walk or stand or sit or lay down without experiencing pain in my leg and pelvis.  I felt naseous and sick and was tired of throwing up.  I was miserable and did not have a very thankful heart.

Today I feel so blessed and so full.  Yes, things have gotten better with my pelvis and my nausea, but that is not why I am beyond thankful.  Yes, hindsight is 20/20 but that is not why I am feeling so humbled.  I am thankful because of what God has shown me in the last three weeks, what He has taught me through my family, friends, and community. 

You see I am a planner and a doer.  I don't like to admit when I need help or if I can't do something myself.  I am independent.  I am strong.  I am self-sufficient.  I can do it all.  But then you find yourself pregnant, nauseous, vomitting, and not able to walk.  I was broken.  And in that moment, I had people pour themselves in my family and myself in ways that I can't even start to describe.  At first, I wasn't willing to take any help.  Yes, I was incapable, but that didn't mean Jimmy was incapable.  My initial response was, "we're fine, we can handle it."  But then I saw the momentus task that stood before Jimmy--he had to be the head, the body, the arms, the legs, the heart, the mind for both me and EV.  And I started to see him slowly starting to wear down.  So finally, I said, "yes," hesitantly at first then desparately then gratefully. 

We had people come and bring us meals (and still bringing us meals), watch EV and take EV to the park or the ballet, come keep me company when I felt like I was going stir crazy, bring us treats, take me to target to buy Christmas gifts for EV, buy groceries for us, send us text messages and emails of encouragement, pray for us.  We had people not just ask us if we're okay, but provided for us. And through it all I was humbled and reminded of the love of Jesus.  There is no way we can repay everyone because what they did for us is priceless.  It's beyond a thank you card.  And although we can't put a monetary value to what they did for us, we want to say thank you from the very bottom of our hearts.  We are so blessed and so loved and so grateful.  We love you!