My my, I have so much catching up to do. Where do I start. I guess I can pick up from the last blog. So, last week we started potty training you and it ended up being a disaster!! The first few days were great, you picked up on it so quickly and it was clear you understood what you needed to do. But we were unsure what to do when we sent you to school, since none of the other kids were being potty trained and you were still having a few accidents. So, we put you back in a diaper and figured one day would not do any harm. Well, when we went back to potty training, it was as if you forgot. You cried "no" when we put you on the toilet and you started getting really anxious. Then came the worst day of all. Sunday morning you were great, you even went to the potty on your own and came to me to show off your goods but then it was all downhill from there. At one point, you started playing in the toilet and I told you firmly that it was dirty and that you shouldn't be playing in it. You looked at me as if I told you something very shocking. Soon after I went upstairs to grab something and I heard you crying. You started peeing in the toilet but for some reason you were shocked by it and started coming to me all the while peeing down the hallway and up the stairs. Needless to say, I started freaking out. I grabbed the Lysol and started cleaning and telling you that it is not nice to pee on the carpet. I think that did you in. Since that point on, you refuse to even go near the toilet. You cry when it's time for a bath (I think because it makes you want to go pee) and for a while you were holding your pee until nap time or bedtime. You would just cry and cry saying that you have to pee but wouldn't/couldn't go, not even in your diaper. So, you are back in your diaper and I refuse to even mention the word pee or potty to you. I think the anxiety of it all made you too stressed out. And I am sorry. I know that you don't like major change and I should have remembered that. I got stressed out and ended up rushing you and making you feel scared, anxious, and insecure. Sweetheart, I don't care if you go to college in diapers, as long as you are healthy and you feel loved.
In other news, I started sewing. I recently started getting into a line of clothes called Matilda Jane and after noticing how expensive the clothes were, I asked a friend who makes beautiful dresses if she could make one for EV. After seeing her work, I was inspired. I thought, maybe I can do some of this. So, I asked my mom if I could borrow her sewing machine, bought some fabric, looked up tons of tutorials online and starting making my own clothes for EV. Now I am totally addicted!! I want to sew all the time. It's also been a very nice outlet for me. Work has been stressful and sewing actually helps me temporarily forget about all that's going on around me.
I realized the other day that EV is now 20 months old! Sometimes I feel like she's 3 or 4 years old--the way she bosses me around. Haha! Today, she said, "Book!! Book!! Read Momma!!" I love the fact that she loves to read but sometimes it drives me crazy because she wants me to read to her ALL the time. Evangeline, you are our sunshine. The moment you wake up, you are ready to start the day. You call out to all your stuff animals as if you are waking them up with you and you demand for us to read you a book--the moment we walk in the door!! You are so fun to talk to and your personality is so much like mine, it's a little scary. You are strong and stubborn, you want things your way, and you let us know when you are unhappy. But there are moments, when I see your pappa in you--when you are in a new surrounding, you quietly take it all in, observing everything, everyone in the room. You have a strong sense of "fairness". If you give me a kiss, you have to give pappa a kiss--everything has to be shared equally. Lately, you have been really happy. Not just smiling happy but belly laugh out loud, uncontrollable laughter happy. It's also really sweet to see you interact with friends, giving them hugs, sharing toys, and talking in your own language. EV you are growing up so fast. I know that we have moments when we don't handle situations right but there is not a single moment that passes by where we do not have unsurpassing love for you and such joy and gratitude for every moment with you.
